for the first time 9/3/2020
For one of the first times that I can ever recall, I actually wasn't prideful or defensive or offended in a conflict. I was clear and I was careful. This is huge for me because even if I don't act on it, I usually feel those spiteful, offended, or even self-pitying feelings. I was hurt, but I didn't dwell on it, I didn't stew. It was a natural hurt that didn't turn into anything. It felt...healthy. And because I knew that I loved the person so much more than my self-protection or allowing bitterness to whisper sweet nothings to me, the resolution was the easiest thing in the world. I didn't try to make her feel sorry, I didn't try to "get justice" for myself. I wanted peace between us, and I knew that she was a work in progress just like I am, and I am more than okay with giving her the space she needs to figure it out with God. Y'all, this may not be a big deal for anyone other than me, but when God said that no one was good except for Him, ...