Hyper-spiritualism - Language

 I think I am naturally inclined to most forms of hyper-spiritualism because I like to feel unique, like I somehow stand out by being more spiritual or close to God. The Holy Spirit has been convicting me that I really am not special, so I've wanted to take a look at forms of hyper spiritualism. 

 There is a trend in a lot of modern Christianity to use language that sounds good but that says very little. I myself have been guilty of using it and thinking that I somehow understand more than others because what I say sounds more spiritual.

It's so stupid. It's a form of gatekeeping and it's self-righteous and ultimately man's words. 

My journal Bible has gone through three versions of me. The first one was just figuring out God's love and who God was, writing down excitement and the sweet obvious statements of who God is. The second was super well intentioned, and I did grow and learn a lot, but I listened to others words more than I listened to God's. I didn't stop and think "What does this phrase or interpretation really mean?" before I wrote it in my Bible. If it sounded good, and I felt like I should have an a-ha moment from it, I wrote it down. The third version is a version that doesn't care about sounding fancy. I want to know what the Word has to say, not what I think about it and how I word it to sound more spiritual. This language still sometimes slips into my mental language, but then I stop myself and think "Okay, what does that REALLY mean? What am I saying?"

For example, in a passage talking about the Holy Spirit, I wrote down something from a sermon. "We are on AM radio, and the Holy Spirit is speaking on FM. We have to change our receiver to hear Him." 

WHAT DOES THAT MEAN??? Change our receiver?? is that something I can find at Home Depot? 

What I think that is trying to say is that we need to retrain our minds through purposely focusing on the Holy Spirit in our day to day life. 

This isn't a salvation issue, and it's not a hill I will die on, but self-righteousness and piety and reinterpreting the scripture is kind of running rampant, and I think we as a Church, as a world, could use a return to embracing stupidity, and humility. 

We're not impressing God with our fancy, vague language. We're not gaining Holy points, we're not better or more enlightened Christians for saying "rhythms of the heart" instead of "feelings". 

I don't know, this past year I'm starting to see more how much we complicate things and take the focus away from God and the message of the Bible, and we make it something for our own edification. 

It's not complicated. It's not mystical or vague spirituality, because He isn't.