August (let's pretend I posted this on time)

This month saw the introduction of lordship into my psyche. I started reading "Holier Than Thou" by Jackie Hill Perry, and she is going to word all this so much better than I could.

I've obviously heard that God is the Creator of the universe and all-powerful and has all authority, and I have believed it whole heartedly, but I don't think that something of that magnitude can be understood by our might alone. 

The Holy Spirit gave me the grace of getting a little taste of perspective. When I say a little taste, I really do mean it. Because that taste of real belief and understanding turned into fact and is enough for me to mull on and turn to over and over. I DON"T WANT THAT TO SOUND ALL PRETENTIOUS BECAUSE IT ISN"T. If anything, I think it's a part of becoming childlike. 

When I say "lordship", I mean not just that God is holy, but that in that perfection, in that holiness, in His total authority, it means that total obedience is not just a good thing or expected, but His right. It is His right to say "don't do this" and it doesn't matter if I don't understand or it doesn't feel good, obedience should be the only response. 

My thoughts and opinions on the matter do not matter. It just so happens that the God of everything also loves us deeply and wants relationship, but that does not lessen the obedience that He is owed. He is good, which means that His total authority is good. 

We don't have to rationalize something for us to act on it. We do not need to understand His ways. Maybe it's just me, but I have definitely lowered God to my level of understanding over and over. 

This truth and subsequent requirement of us reminds me of "becoming childlike" because when you are young and your parent says something, it doesn't occur to you to try and rationalize it or change it a little to fit with your own personal morals, you just say "Yes sir." because you know that this person has total authority over you. 

I really feel like over all these years of me discovering who God really is, I've just been incredibly dense because these cliche analogies that I've heard my whole life are finally clicking, finally meaning something to me. 

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